Like Dexter, I Also Have a Dark Passenger

He reveals me his straight. I muck my 2 pair in dis­gust. It's not that I got out­played. That doesn't piss me off too much. What DOES piss me down is when I make a strong game approach along the way to the casino, nevertheless when I get there, my black pas­sen­ger takes over and the game approach fades the door. It's like I'm two peo­ple. On usually the one give, I am a respon­si­ble dad and hus­band. Individual, cre­ative and fru­gal. On one other hand, I'm an aggres­sive poker player - impa­tient, impul­sive and some­instances reckless.

Ok, maybe my com­par­i­boy to Dex­ter is definitely an exag­ger­a­tion. After all, its been decades since I hacked up some wicked dude and used his parts of the body in the ocean.

I've the same con­ver­sa­tion each time I go to the casino. "Today I'm planning to perform tight. Number fish­ing. Only perform posi­tion. Fold brings when I do not have the odds. Get house when I eliminate my edge. Do not go on tip when I get yourself a bad beat. And most impor­tantly, FOLD WHEN I KNOW I AM BEAT!" I look in the mir­ror. Remind myself that I'm in control
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Then I get to the casino, rapidly go to the believed and plop down my chips and eagerly await my first Christ­mas present. 2 min­utes later, all my chips are in the mid­dle. 3 way activity and I am on the nut flush bring on the flop. I nearly have odds and con­vince myself this is a good spot to obtain it all in. 30 sec­onds later.....I am on tip, call­ing for chips and prepared to gam­ble. Just like that, enter my black pas­sen­ger. It does not take extended until, I've lost my sec­ond buy-in. At this point, I search at my phone and real­ize I have been here for just 75 min­utes. Luck­ily the wall­pa­per on my iPhone is really a pic­ture of my son. Immediately I break back. My horns withdraw, my fangs escape, my trail dis­ap­pears and I am myself again. I air profoundly and remind myself that I'm not explained by my last give of poker.

I'm always sur­prised when my black side arrives, but I attended to be grate­ful for him as well. I take advantage of him as a mea­sure for my per­sonal growth. Your day I can take a beat­ing and shake it down will be the time I have made it to the next amount of con­scious­ness. It might noise a bit meta­phys­i­cal, but that's one of many rea­daughters I play poker.

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